Today is the fair at school.
Emily doesn’t care much for the fair. It’s noisey. It’s not her routine. It’s a lot of commotion she’d rather not be around.
And as soon as she sees me there…..she cries because she wants to leave.
Her teacher is going to have her help at a pretzel stand & we talked about the idea of my not going so that she might enjoy the day with her class. Sniff sniff.
But as I was getting Emily on the bus….all I could do is well up with tears. Even now as I type this I can’t stop crying.
It’s just one of those moments that I wish Emily liked things like that.
Don’t misunderstand. It’s not a wish for her to be “normal”. For lack of a better word. It’s just in my heart I know that she is missing out on some things that other kids can do without even giving it a second thought. It’s a mom thing.
She is a very happy little girl & I wouldn’t change who she is for anything but sometimes……it just hits hard.
A dear friend and fellow C17 mom wrote this to me today:
hugs…it is hard… but then…one look at their sweet faces and you know…they see the world so much differently than we do….we see trials as pain…they make no mention of the trials…they are so busy looking for the goodness in others. The road isnt easy…but I am more than convinced…We are the learners…they are our teachers…if only i am half as good of a person as Ella and Emily….sometimes i think i am the one with special needs….i forget to see others like Jesus sees them….Ella and Emily…never struggle with this! 🙂
Thank you for that Holly!
update: Lily & I packed up and headed over to the fair. Only to find a very happy little girl once she spotted us. We walked around enjoying the bright colors, rides & fun music. She picked out a cute little pink poodle….which she totted around the entire time.